I ,currently, like three people: My best friend, a boy who doesn't contact me but apparently likes me too, and a boy who my other good friend likes too.
See why this blog is titled that?
I have had a rough week. My best best bestfriend, in the whole entire universe, got suspended from her school and won't contact me. I was talking to somone who knew about it and they said it was because I was annoying and because my friend hates me. That put a damper on me. I hurt myself and it felt weird. It was like this blinding pain. And when I did it I didn't cry and I felt like I could breathe and I smiled. It is wonderful. I felt better afterwards other than the sting of the cut but it still felt better than it would have if I didn't.
Two people saw it though and asked about it. They wanted me to promise not to do it again. I couldn't look at them. One of them actually said I was good at hiding my feelings. That made me smile. I don't like to burden people with my feelings. They get bored listening. =D
Well I gotta go study for a history test. I am excited I get to go to cali tomorrow.
See ya around
~N~T~
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
New Cutie ta Bootie!
Music Uhm...silence
mood sleepy/ bored/brain dead
needs food and something to do
Location In your head.
So I go to a pretty small charter school. We don't have a lot of kids so everyone knows everyone. It is almost like a family. The only problem is that when you go out with someone and you break up, you have to see them everyday. Well, except for weekends and holidays ;P.
Luckily, I don't have this problem. I am not interested in boys, except for one but he doesn't even go to the school so I don't have to worry. Any way I was talking about...oh yeah!
Okay, anyway. So I go to a small school and getting new comers is almost as exciting as opening presents on a christmas morning. We have a new student and he is so cute. Now when I say cute I mean he isn't ugly and he isn't handsome. So in between there. Well he is cute and I only share one hour with him but thats fine. I am not interested cause I think he is just a face. He seemed a little nervous today (Who wouldn't on the first day of going to a different school?). I want to help him out and be his friend, I mean I do get along better with guys than I do with most girls, but I don't want it to seem like I like him or anything. I'll probably just end up being his friend anyway. A lot of the girls like him (he is a cute boy for goodness sakes!!) and if they see me they might start rumors and drama will start. Thats how it is in this school.
Thats another down side. Drama. It is everywhere like wildfire and then when it ends, well actually it never ends. It is so tiring and if you aren't in it then you aren't in.
I don't want to start that again.
I'll probably just be his friend anyway. So why the hell am I writing this? Oh I don't know...maybe because I just like to blurt out everything on my mind on this little blogger thing than to my actual friends....Shows how much I give. Its not like I don't have things to say its just that people get tired of listening. I always listen to them, they just, when it comes down to it, never stick around long enough to listen to me.
I had a friend that would help me with my problems and she is, for some reason, never around anymore. She just stopped answering my calls. I try to find out whats wrong but she never tells me. I miss her so much.
lol see how quickly my thoughts change. Thats why I need this. So I don't have to keep it all in my head. Well I am going to go now.
Cya
~N~T~
mood sleepy/ bored/brain dead
needs food and something to do
Location In your head.
So I go to a pretty small charter school. We don't have a lot of kids so everyone knows everyone. It is almost like a family. The only problem is that when you go out with someone and you break up, you have to see them everyday. Well, except for weekends and holidays ;P.
Luckily, I don't have this problem. I am not interested in boys, except for one but he doesn't even go to the school so I don't have to worry. Any way I was talking about...oh yeah!
Okay, anyway. So I go to a small school and getting new comers is almost as exciting as opening presents on a christmas morning. We have a new student and he is so cute. Now when I say cute I mean he isn't ugly and he isn't handsome. So in between there. Well he is cute and I only share one hour with him but thats fine. I am not interested cause I think he is just a face. He seemed a little nervous today (Who wouldn't on the first day of going to a different school?). I want to help him out and be his friend, I mean I do get along better with guys than I do with most girls, but I don't want it to seem like I like him or anything. I'll probably just end up being his friend anyway. A lot of the girls like him (he is a cute boy for goodness sakes!!) and if they see me they might start rumors and drama will start. Thats how it is in this school.
Thats another down side. Drama. It is everywhere like wildfire and then when it ends, well actually it never ends. It is so tiring and if you aren't in it then you aren't in.
I don't want to start that again.
I'll probably just be his friend anyway. So why the hell am I writing this? Oh I don't know...maybe because I just like to blurt out everything on my mind on this little blogger thing than to my actual friends....Shows how much I give. Its not like I don't have things to say its just that people get tired of listening. I always listen to them, they just, when it comes down to it, never stick around long enough to listen to me.
I had a friend that would help me with my problems and she is, for some reason, never around anymore. She just stopped answering my calls. I try to find out whats wrong but she never tells me. I miss her so much.
lol see how quickly my thoughts change. Thats why I need this. So I don't have to keep it all in my head. Well I am going to go now.
Cya
~N~T~
Sunday, September 21, 2008
New computer...
Music: Smrpg song
mood:tired
Needs:sleep
location: The floor of my room
I have a new laptop. IT is way better than my old one. It has faster internet service, better sound quality, a burner, and its easier to carry around. The only down part to it is that my dad set up this parental control thing where it records all the sites I go on, it blocks the 'inappropriate' sites, and it has a timer set on it so it shuts off at ten at night and doesn't let me go on until like six am. The parental controls makes the laptop almost not worth it. I miss my freedom.
My friends think I should just give the laptop back. But I found out the password to the parental control thing and now I can unblock sites and do all the things I want to do. The only problem is that it records everything I unblock and change on the laptop. I find it unfair that he doesn't trust me and he does this. It just makes it easier for me to betray his trust. I hate this feeling of guilt, when really I didn't do anything.
mood:tired
Needs:sleep
location: The floor of my room
I have a new laptop. IT is way better than my old one. It has faster internet service, better sound quality, a burner, and its easier to carry around. The only down part to it is that my dad set up this parental control thing where it records all the sites I go on, it blocks the 'inappropriate' sites, and it has a timer set on it so it shuts off at ten at night and doesn't let me go on until like six am. The parental controls makes the laptop almost not worth it. I miss my freedom.
My friends think I should just give the laptop back. But I found out the password to the parental control thing and now I can unblock sites and do all the things I want to do. The only problem is that it records everything I unblock and change on the laptop. I find it unfair that he doesn't trust me and he does this. It just makes it easier for me to betray his trust. I hate this feeling of guilt, when really I didn't do anything.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
For those interested in this life...
Mood: hungry
Needs:Food
Music Does bacon sizzling in the background count?
Welcome to the world of Neko~Tenshi. So we are back at school. For my school we have been in for at least 6 weeks now. New Highschool teachers. Some are drags and some are amazing. I have so much work to do and it is so much fun. I am in Av, drumline, flag, newspaper, and choir. It is a lot of work but it will look good on my college transcript.
I am bisexual and I am very open minded. I am Wiccan and I don't like it when people say that thier religion is the right way. It is what they believe in, they think its the right way it isn't necessarily the right way. Oh by the way I have disorganized thoughts so If i go on a tangent feel free to skim. =)
I think this is all I am going to write for my first clog a little introduction.
Cya around,
N~T
Needs:Food
Music Does bacon sizzling in the background count?
Welcome to the world of Neko~Tenshi. So we are back at school. For my school we have been in for at least 6 weeks now. New Highschool teachers. Some are drags and some are amazing. I have so much work to do and it is so much fun. I am in Av, drumline, flag, newspaper, and choir. It is a lot of work but it will look good on my college transcript.
I am bisexual and I am very open minded. I am Wiccan and I don't like it when people say that thier religion is the right way. It is what they believe in, they think its the right way it isn't necessarily the right way. Oh by the way I have disorganized thoughts so If i go on a tangent feel free to skim. =)
I think this is all I am going to write for my first clog a little introduction.
Cya around,
N~T
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